I WAS
A dreamer
I used to dream that I could be whatever I wanted to be. I wanted to work for Pixar, I wanted to be the next American Idol and I wanted to work at a coffee shop and be a barista. I had this plan to become an amazing graphic designer by merging traditional art with graphic art. I actually have some of the tools to do so now and I am pretty proficient in photoshop, illustrator and indesign. One step at a time I suppose. My next step in manifesting this aspect of myself is to save up money, update my computer, and start my portfolio. I still want to be an amazing singer, but I realize that pop is really now that much of my style. I have been in choir and I have finally experienced singing Opera and Classical Music. It has been such a treat. I have learned things that are seared into my brain and that I will never forget. Mainly, to open up, support, and FEEL the text, relate to the character, always. I am now currently manifesting and living my third vision of myself. I am now a barista, getting tremendously better at what I am actually doing. I have yet to learn about the wonders of coffee. :) However, i have somewhat lost the connection of coffee and conversation, or coffee and life. Without my sisters here it hasn't really been all the same. However, I am meeting people, and I am holding conversations, the dreamer has kinda lost her touch at this point tho. I feel that although I have successfully manifested some of my dreams (if not parts of all of them), my goals are blurry at this current state. I must see things clearly
I AM
A wage earner
I work about 30 hours a week. Supporting myself with my basic necessities and buying some material things that give me amusement. I am enjoying my job, yet America in general is a pretty fast paced society. Something that did not get used to growing up. I have forgotten to appreciate the little things like reading a book, or listening to music, or learning an instrument, or drawing and sketching or looking up things related to faeries and dragons and mythical creatures. :) I feel the breeze that this electric fan is blowing upon me; I remember my summers and afternoons spent back home. I loved being able to connect with little things like that. The work pace has officially gotten to me and I am trying to let go of this weird feeling. I must stay calm inside despite the things going on outside. I have to meditate more and feel my breath. I have to commune with nature under a tree. I am going to make it a point to go to a million parks before I go back to school.
FUTURE ME
A magician
The future and actually current me is one who is neutral when it comes to things that are annoying or unpleasant in any way. She will breathe when something is troubling her and she will move forward, all the time she will keep moving forward. She is still a dreamer, yet she will be patient. All in good time everything will come into place. A period of transition is almost always what we are in. She has faith in the universe, she knows how to love, fully with no inhibitions. She has strong will and courage, she will dare to do what she has never done before. She also has routine and regularity, she has discipline to stick to what is good for her, what is healthy and what is right for her body to fully function is wellness. She is prosperous and free. Many graces befall her because she gives many to those who willingly take them with open arms. She is diplomatic and respectful. She will always take precaution. Yet she is also wild and crazy and she speaks her mind. The future me is a musician, a dancer, an artist, a broadway star, a traveller, a foodie, a healthy person (physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally), a healer and a catalyst.
Lets finish cleaning my room. :)
